If I faced a very dark night alone without any electric light, I’ll be scared of the darkness.
もし、私が夜の真ん中に電気なしでいたら、私はその暗さを恐るだろう。
Nature is our mother. I awe and respect.
自然は私達の母で、畏敬を覚える。
When I visited NYC first time in my life, it was my early 20′. I was afraid of the electric light from the land through my airplane window. The light was almost like a fire. I was afraid of human power.
I received a package from Japan. Kuroneko-pooh san sent me a very thoughtful package. And one of the items that my mother’s handmade masks made me very happy and release from my worries about the lack of masks. Thank you so much!
ダン蔵 introduced his newest freestyle haiku to me over the dinner.
I’m lost… I’m confused… I must find the location of my senior center
ダン蔵が、夕食の時、彼の最新の自由律俳句を紹介してくれた。
私は迷子です、、、混乱してます、、、、私は私の高齢者センターの場所を見つけなければならない。
I asked him is this sarcasm? ダン蔵 said this is pathos.
私は、それは皮肉か?と、聞くと、彼はパトスだ。と、言った。
I looked at a dictionary and it said pathos is momentary and emotional elements.
Well, therefore, I wanted to introduce him to Japanese two masters freestyle Haiku, Taneda Santouka, and Ozaki Hosai. But, he didn’t want to know them. It’s a pity.
Lyrics that are critical to modern society are also good. However, I don’t think it will be transmitted to people who do not understand Japanese. It’s a pity.
現代社会批判的な歌詞もいい。が、日本語がわからない人には、伝わらないんだろうと思うと、残念。
I have been listening to his music since I was a teenager.
私は彼の音楽を10代の頃から聞いています。
But unfortunately, he is Pisces. I don’t like Pisces men. Because I am a Pisces. I am emotional and not rational. I don’t want to have a relationship with an emotional and not rational person like me. I am enough to take care of myself, and sometimes myself is too much for me.
I read his biography at my high school library with my friend.
私はシーレの伝記を高校の図書館で友達と読んだ。
According to the book, his six months pregnant wife got the Spanish flu. Desperate Schiele, he had the last sexual intercourse with his dying wife. Therefore, he also got the flu, and he passed away 3 days after his wife.
I couldn’t understand his sexual desire. Because I was still virgin.
私は彼の性欲が理解出来なかった。処女だったし。
I thought it’s a life-threatening sex. Irrational. It is absurd.
命がけでSEXするなんて、不合理。馬鹿げてる。と、思った。
However, I can understand Schiele now.
だけど、今なら、シーレの気持ちがわかる。
2016 was an awful year. ダン蔵 fell in seizure and hospitalized. And many complications made the hospitalization end up six months.
2016年はひどい年でした。 ダン蔵は発作に陥り入院して、困難を極め、入院は6か月に渡りました。
He suffered many nights in a coma.
彼は昏睡状態で多くの夜を過ごしました。
I couldn’t think about my life without him. There is no my life.
私は彼抜きでの自分の人生が想像出来なかった。そこには自分の命もなかった。
ダン蔵 hospitalized August, then, my dear friend and my art dealer in London also hospitalized in September. He couldn’t make it. He passed away in December. ダン蔵 came back home on February 14th, 2017.